tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1362373399405910593.post8656083722638570694..comments2023-12-11T20:18:37.225-06:00Comments on Shattering the Silence: "I Felt as if God Himself Had Molested Me"Roger Mannhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07591791342062150604noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1362373399405910593.post-26578056645433661402016-07-05T12:57:54.092-05:002016-07-05T12:57:54.092-05:00OUCH.
My father was a pastor, teacher, preacher a...OUCH.<br /><br />My father was a pastor, teacher, preacher all his life. I grew up under his ministry and saw God use him in miraculous ways. He had a great reputation among his peers. <br /><br />He was also my 'molester'. All my life he had access to me and did whatever he wanted. I never told till he died. for the first twenty years of my life I assumed this was normal, ok and it felt good most of the time. I accepted Christ through my mother's teaching and believed I had a great childhood. There was a significant amount of sexual activity throughout my young life but what had I to compare it to?<br /><br />When I left home finally at the age of 18 I began to have some serious confusion over what I now realized was not what other boys experience in their families. I also assumed that those behaviors I was involved in were okay because why would dad and I do those things; why would he encourage me in those things if it were wrong? <br /><br />So from about 22 yo on I fell into a real spiritual crisis about how God felt about me. If it weren't for my mother I am not sure I would have survived that crisis of the spirit and soul. God was patient and helped me through that but it really tore up a huge part of my life in that struggle to work past the lies. <br /><br />I too had to deal with the idea that God has molested me directly through my father. I have often been asked how I could still be a Christian after what happened to me. I can only say that Truth survives the scrutiny.Roger Mannhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07591791342062150604noreply@blogger.com