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A Testimony from Graham Bell

The following testimony is from Graham M. Bell, West Yorkshire, UK (and I've retained his British spellings).

I'm almost 47. When I was 9 or 10, then from the ages of 11 to 14, I was groomed and used systematically for the sexual gratification of three men. One was a neighbour, another his lodger, and the third, a teacher whose school I'd started a term late. Hence, I was the new boy.

My recovery has begun in earnest of late. How I've not ended my life—directly or indirectly—already, I have no idea. I pray lots. I've made a Christian commitment. I hold back...but I'm closer than ever to purging the wounds, and I'm still reluctant to trust even God.

I never realised how numbed I'd made myself. Then, suddenly (after 35 years!) I found Cec's book. My wife wept through it. I did, too.

I'm giving up alcohol for Lent. My promise to God is to use my gifts to create something—something in return for Him having spared my almost-suicidal life.

If I do finish the book, it won't usurp Cec's!

Thank God for humour.

Love to Cec, and his bloggers.

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