(This post is from Tom Scales of VoiceToday.org. It was published on their blog in a slightly different form.)
I woke up this morning and it was there again. Over the 60 years since my sexual abuse started it has happened many times, although less frequently as my healing has taken place.
I refer to the sensation of being sodomized. It is one of the reminders of uglier times.
For decades the sensation triggered fear, anxiety, rage, and an appetite for vengeance. Today I feel none of those, only a renewed commitment to my participation in programs to protect children and help adults heal form the evil of childhood sexual abuse.