(This is the second of three posts from Joseph.)
I gave my counselor the following list at my session this week.
What I’ve Learned/Concluded about Myself
1. I didn’t deserve the childhood psychological abuse or the adolescent sexual abuse that happened to me.
2. I didn’t have a father who loved, nurtured, and protected me; but all the time, through the years, God, the truest Father, was loving, nurturing, and providentially protecting me.
3. Through the years, I avoided fellowship with men because I was afraid I would act unmanly and they would think I was a pervert. I realize that in doing that, I was avoiding the very men who could have affirmed my maleness.
4. It takes a real man to look past abuse and personal failures in the eye and with the help of a counselor gain assurance that you didn’t start the abuse. Next admit and accept the resulting sins and failures, but then turn around and face the future with your head up. I have; I am a man!
5. This year has been the best year of my life because God has brought a change in me. I know how Scrooge felt on Christmas morning!
6. I cannot use the past tense and say, “I am recovered,” but I can with confidence use the continuing present tense and say, “I am recovering.”